So happy to see that you'll be back soon! It makes me so sad to think that someone would do something like that to someone as amazing as you, you deserve so much better. Hope that you'll be okay and that you find happiness far above anything he ever gave you. Keep your head up gorgeous, you're the best! Happy to see you return, and excited to see your writing. (:@Anonymous
thank you for your message, it was so sweet and means so much to me :) having support from followers like you makes me so happy xx i’m going to be doing some writing later this week so hopefully i can get some things posted for you!
I think I owe you an explanation and an apology.
I’ve been extremely inactive on this blog for a very long time now, and I feel like I should explain why. This post will probably end up being very long, so I won’t be offended if you ignore it.
In November of 2012 I started dating a boy that I thought I loved. At that time, I was still very active on the blog and my follower count was rising daily. I was posting frequently, and I always said that my quotes were just things I had come up with rather than things that were inspired by my own life. Thinking back on it now, I realize I was lying to myself when I said that. Since the relationship ended in December 2013, I’ve been unable to come up with anything to say on this blog. It’s because I’m happy.
The relationship was emotionally draining. I put in far more effort than he did, but I told myself it didn’t matter because I “loved” him. I was extremely loyal to him, so much so that I allowed him to push away the most important people in my life, mainly people who had been my best friends for years. He wanted me all to himself, and I let it happen. I thought it was because he loved me.
As winter approached in 2013, I began to see things differently. My boyfriend and I were at a football game in September when I caught him texting a girl I had never heard of. We had this sort of understanding in our relationship that we told each other absolutely everything, which I know now is not completely normal. Anyway, things went downhill from there. I don’t know how far he went, but he was sneaking around behind my back. I realized that he wanted to keep me close to him so that I couldn’t betray him the way he was betraying me.
I still thought I was in love with him, so I spent the next couple months trying to make the relationship work. In the end, it didn’t. I don’t really want to get into the rest of the details. The main thing to know is that I found out I was never in love with him. I loved the idea of being in what I thought was a serious relationship, and having someone care about it. He tricked me and I fell for it.
Throughout the course of the relationship. I made many sad posts on Tumblr. I thought that they came from my imagination, but it turns out they came from my own emotions.
Despite everything that happened (I have not written the whole story), I don’t regret the relationship. It was the longest relationship I’ve been in and it taught me a lot about myself. I feel far more sure of who I am now.
Anyway, I’m going to try to start posting again. I have no idea if what I write will be any good, but I’m going to try my best. Thank you so much to all of you for continuing to follow my blog even while I was inactive. You guys mean so much to me. xx
This isn't a question but I'd like to say that I really love your account. Keep up the good work. c:@Anonymous
thank you so much darling! messages like this make my day :)